Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Uganda, Part 1

One of the first questions I was asked upon arriving in Uganda was, “What are your hobbies?”. A little embarrassed that I spent most of my time working, studying, or planning my future, I fumbled to put together an answer. I can barely remember now what I answered, but I think it was a random compilation of things that sounded like hobbies and that I had done once or twice in my life.


“What about you? What are your favorite hobbies?” I asked trying to deflect attention away from my lack of interests.


Jovially, Susan answered, “I like to laugh and hang out with my sisters and listen to music”.


I was sort of thrown off by this answer and immediately thought to myself, “I like to laugh too. I didn’t know that was a hobby.”


That moment was the start to a summer in which I learned to dance with reckless abandon, pursue restoration, find splendor in silence, and realize that there does not have to be some concrete result from every action we participate in. Joy is the result.


I once heard a TED talk by a young teenage boy discussing how he believes that mainstream education should include an emphasis on how to pursue a healthy, happy lifestyle. In America, schools teach us to read, write, add, subtract, and locate North Dakota on a map (I must have missed that day), but what we don't learn is how to balance life, work, school, hobbies, relationships and all of the other things that make for a full and well lived life. This sort of American focus on results and productivity is something that was reluctantly, but gratefully, unlearned while in Uganda. I spent most mornings marvelling at the wild turkeys perched on the roof of our neighbor’s hut while ringing out my handwashed clothes. It was a slower life than I had ever known. Many days I desperately yearned to make a difference and do something useful with my time in Uganda; however, learning to deny the rabid desire for busyness was one of the most useful things I could have done. I came out of the experience with a deep appreciation for slowness and silence that I never could have adopted without a season of rest. There is a certain connection to others, to the Creator, and to yourself that you begin to nurture when you spend enough time away from  activity, technology, and work.


I distinctly remember one morning waking up to a storm that, pounding against our tin roof, made me think that our humble home had been relocated underneath a waterfall. I cozied up in my sheets, underneath the unbelievably comforting barricade of my mosquito net, basking in the sensation of being powerless against the frightening beauty of this earth. Hours later as I journeyed outside I saw our chickens and wondered what they had done during the storm. So feisty, but so small, they could have easily been swept away in the storm. I sat on the concrete steps near the kitchen watching the chickens and just thinking about their lives. What would it be like to be a chicken? Where do they go during storms?


And so it went, day after day, contemplating humanity underneath powerful rainfall, befriending chickens and wild turkeys, handwashing my clothes.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Thoughts on the Current State of American Christian Culture: World Vision


All I know is that if Jesus were the CEO of World Vision right now, and He listened to the backlash of Christians, I would be out of a job.


As I wearily woke up this morning and dragged myself downstairs, still wiping the sleep from my eyes, I opened my fridge. Innocently hoping to retrieve coffee creamer, I instead encountered a falling jar of salsa. As it crashed to the the ground, creating a mess of glass and salsa, I muttered as I do far too often, “G*d Damn it”.


I am a Christian. However, come closer. Lean in. I want to tell you something. I curse a lot. I lie. I gossip. I do not tithe consistently. I am not always kind. I question God. Last week I watched House of Cards instead of going to church. I like boys, but I probably think of them a sinful amount. I use God’s name in vain almost every time a glass jar falls out of the stock house my eight roommates and I call the refrigerator. I believe in the values displayed by Jesus. I am deeply softened by His compassion for the sinner, care for the marginalized, and disregard for traditions and rules that nurtured hatred.


World Vision, an organization that is doing life changing work such as disaster relief and caring for the precious children that Jesus so often spoke of, announced two days ago that they would begin hiring Christians in same sex marriages. Yesterday, the Christian community decided that asserting the implications of their interpretation of God’s view on homosexuality was more important than caring for the orphan, the poor, the lost.


As my journey in the Christian faith has developed throughout the past few years, I have not been able to ignore the way in which we are so quick to pass judgement on others. I myself continue to judge others based on Biblical interpretations. Rather than pursuing the unconditional and boundless love that Jesus taught and showed to others, we as Christians have perpetuated a culture quick to overlook our own shortcomings and quick to judge what we view as shortcomings in others.


And that is a real problem. Daily, myself and so many other Christians I know decide, confirmed through our actions, that pursuing a life full of love and compassion is not as important as our self proclaimed power to condemn those that engage in perceived sin.


If there is one thing I have learned in my walk of faith, it is that our wisdom is incomparable to that which lies within the hand of our great Creator. So, I have stopped asserting my own ‘wisdom’ and  have started attempting (although, failing a lot) just to be kind to people; the way that Jesus was. When I read the New Testament and envision the personality of this dude Jesus, I rarely finish a story and think to myself, “Man, Jesus really hates homosexuals. I need to go pull my donations from any organization that hires gay people”. Regardless of your view on homosexuality, we can all agree on that sentiment. When I finish reading a story about Jesus I am usually overwhelmed and humbled by the great love that Jesus shows to people, and what I should be thinking to myself is, “Jesus really, really, really loves people. Deeply. I should go use whatever I have been given to try and love people like that.”


I think that is what American Christian culture needs- a little less judge, a little more love. A little less thinking and a little more doing. Besides, once a little birdie whispered to me that it is not our job to condemn others. Rather, it is our job to love. Unconditionally. Radically. Recklessly.


This all is so much bigger than World Vision and even our beliefs about homosexuality. This is about our call, as followers of Jesus, to love without question. (Can you remember a story in which Jesus asked a person if they were gay before conversing with them?)


My challenge to myself and to you, Christian, is to actively pursue love. That is hard. And pretty damn time consuming. If we all start actively pursuing love, defined in the Bible as kindness and patience, we would not have time to pull our donations from organizations that hire gay people. And, if we continue to pursue pure love, we probably would not want to pull the donation anyway.